Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Flip and FLY Away
Why is it that when both person did the same things to me...
I flared up at one but not the other?
Is it cos I have changed?
or it is just sweeping everything under the carpet?
Well well, Something is bothering me very badly....
rahs............ what can I do?
alrite dont come and ask me why and what is bothering me
cos I don't wish to say anything.
cos I am not trying to attract attention of anyone to care about me.
I just need to let out all that I am feeling deep down inside me
and blogging is the only way for me I guess.
Words that someone has said
Things that someone has done
mayb that someone couldnt even remember
but it could just cause permanent damage
to one's heart.
Well, I felt really bad for all that has been happening around me recently.
And I realised so much about myself..
about how people around me looked at me.
I am not a good daughter
I am not a good sister
I am not a good student
I am not a good employee
I am not a good friend
I am not a good lover
I am not a good person
Whatz up with my life?
I feel so helpless that sometimes I wish I could juz end all these shit.
I cannot find anyone to talk to...
I am so afraid to stay at home
I am afraid of going home
I am afraid
wELL, I spent my whole day thinking of alot of things today.
thought about BASKETBALL.......
I asked myself is it really worth it for me to lose my two knees,
to lose so much precious time,
to lose so much sweat and pain
for something I have hanged on for 10 years
yet bringing me nowhere now.....
I must admit I lost my passion in it already.
I wanna let go.. but still something is holding me back.
:(
After thinking for one bloody day
I came to realise no one understands me
not even those that are closest to me.
wo zhi hao ba wo xiang shuo de hua dou fang zai xin li
yin wei wo zhi xiang yao ni kai xin
wo zhi dao wo hui xin ku
ye hui nan guo
dan wo she mo dou yuan yi
bu zai hu kuang feng bao yu
bu guan ni zai na li
A picture paints a thousand words
i'm a FrEaK.
5/16/2006 05:40:00 PM.